My curiosity and interest pointed early on in the direction of Tantra.

But I came to know tantra and it's healing powers much more intimately through the death of my life long friend.

Such an impactful death, and the loss of her support in my life, spun me into a deep depression back in 2014. The year after loosing her, we almost lost our oldest son to a severe brain infection. I did not know how to cope with that much intense emotions and I was diagnosed with burn-out. I wasn't able to connect to loved ones like before and I couldn't see the point in being happy. Luckily a dear friend of mine decided to take me to a week long retreat with an impactful tantra teacher and shakti conduit, Igor Kufayev.

The meditation sessions were long sits of agony for me, during which I was tormented by all my unprocessed feelings. Until the third day of the retreat, when he came over to me and made a seemingly minor gesture in my direction, which brought on a form of powerful burning healing I had never experienced before. For a split second, which felt like an eternity, I saw all the horrors play out again in front of me, the force of which knocked me to the ground. But this time it felt like the burning had a purpose. The heat forced itself through my body, burning all remnants of sadness to ashes. I temporarily couldn't move my body but the agony had left me and slow simple content flooded my body. That evening I couldn't talk much, only giggle, when I tried to speak, and I had the strange sensation of blowing bubbles out of my mouth every time I tried to talk.

The rest of the week, and the following years I have been on this path of integrating tantric philosophies and their healing potential. I was very lucky to study with my friend, fellow community member and local tantra teacher, Swami Ravi Rudra Bharati, who taught me the practice, embodiment and spiritual lineage of the Himalayan traditions.

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The playing field is life itself, embracing the pleasures of beauty and grief alike.

Making the Mundane Sacred.